New info.

So just to tell you guys out there that ARE reading hahhhaa.... Not many but still worth writing. Well, i've started Kumon. And, im going back to teach the kid for a cheaper price cause his mother thinks im too ''expensive''. Haiz... So, same time for less money. but NVM, i'll just save. Also, i might work in the Kumon Centre for a part time job. Just keep marking papers !!! And get PAID !! Im saving up !!!! For i have no idea what, but who cares ?!!? With money, there's always things to use it on. Everybody knows that. So mail bomb is also going to start costing me cause i've ran out of free stamps. By the way, even though it seems like i've got everything under control, that should mean that im stressless for the moment right ? So let me just ask you this, WHY am i having so ''much'' pimples ?!?! Tell me alright ? See ya !! Smile.

Mail Bomb !!

HHAHAHA ! I know the title of this post is funny, but seriously, 'mail bomb' is fun !!! Basically, let me explain. The game goes like this, my friend and i are both mailing each other REAL mails, almost everyday. So, when we receive each other's mails the next week, we receive one almost everyday ! Its awesome ! I know its a little old fashion and stupid. But its really cool to receive a mail from your bestest friend !!!! And the cooler thing is that they too think its cool as well ! Anyway, im gonna try sending people one mail everyday. And i'll see what they think. Yeah yeah, call me lifeless !! but im just trying to make someone else smile !!! Cheez !!!

What you can and cant have.

I hate the fact that life is allowed to catogorize what you can and cant have. It feels like there's a whole controller switching the channels and never lets you have a go at choosing what you wanna watch!! Is there actually a fairy tale for everyone ? Is there really an escape that we can experience apart from reality when reality strike hard ? My mind always just wonder away to things that i belive in. It cant stay here where all things are meant to be accepted, where things are in their respectable places.

I wish i could have magic, which a lot of people wishes as well. But you know, people wish there's magic but they dont believe in it when they '' grow up'' but i still sometimes do and i cant help it. Because for the first time in a long time, im cant have what i want. Im in prison. A lot of people think that having a chance not to make a decision is better than making one. But making one decision is better than the decision being made for you. Just keep going till you see something, it might just be the right door you reached. So make your decision !

Im sorta excited but scared yet proud of myself.

Right, so today is gonna be my frist day having a ''job'' to do !!! AAAHHH !!! Im so nervous. Well, im suppose to teach this 7 year old kid math and English. In my head i was wondering why on earth does the mother wants me to teach the child english when there's so many english people here that can probably speak better than me ? Well, then i found out that it was actually because i could speak chinese !!!! Im so proud of that side of me. Anyway, so the kid is chinese and the mum wants me to teach him in math in TWO languages and English just in english la. I have to be in their house in exactly 35 mins from now. Currently in the library borrowing a book for him to read later and also going online telling you guys this news!! hehhheh !! Any ideas on what i can prepare as a ''teacher'' for him to help the teaching more interesting ?? Tel me kay !!!?? Ciaoz !!

Back at ''School'', Im on fire.

So since last Thursday, I've been back to my school and got things going. With this, it got me motivated. It is my last consideration on pressing the button. Not worrying about how friends here and in Malaysia thinks, I learn to be selfish. In a good way. Basically, I realise that even though so deep i miss my friends, so crushed i stay up late, so stupid i waste my time, i AM on my on doing. Now i've started to learn to protect myself instead of caring for what people thinks of me, because there's no space in me to contain that. Im going to look after and take good care of myself in whatever ways to ensure that i am not going off the hook. This, my only option because literally, there's only myself on my back. This may sound vague but NO !! I wont think about what's on your mind. Im gonna focus what's on mine ! Watch it, cause i know now. Other than this new ''update'', i appreciate all of your motivational emails. ( For those who sent me). Cheers.